I’ve always been a pretty confident person and have always had a good sense of self. This all has been put to the test this past year as I am finding my sense of self shifting and changing as I navigate this adult world.
With the recent falling out of my best friend, in which he blocked me, I’ve started taking joy in the things I did before I met this person almost two years ago. I had previously spent much of my time with them forgetting myself in the process. While I am grateful that this person has evolved me into the person I am now, and has greatly impacted me, I am finding solace in finding out who I am alone. I have met so many new people this past month, none of whom I’d meet if my friend were still in my life. I’ve always enjoyed time on my own, but naturally I am a social person so forcing myself to really spend time alone with my feelings and emotions is hard.
I do miss my friend and I hope we can be friends one day, but I am also enjoying this sense of peace with myself that has been lost for the past two years.
I don’t know what 2020 holds, and I don’t know what people it will bring, but I am excited and curious to learn more about myself going forward.